WOW, I haven’t posted here since March 24th! So what’s been happening in my world during the last 4 months…..foe starters, after I wrote Happiness Followed By Hidden or Maybe Not So Hidden Sadness, I had to jump right into Ms. mode.
Over the next several months of helping my Mom with organizing my Dad’s paperwork, and still very much missing and morning the loss of my Dad, I found myself returning to the one thing I knew would help relax me (or so I thought/and still think), my old friend the cigarette after 12 years of not smoking,
Truthfully I was prepared to stop again a few weeks ago when out of left field we were hit with
As we turned the calendar to July, I immediately went into that “organizer” mode and scheduled appointment with our local radiologist/oncologist and our local surgeon, as well as, having a CT scan w/contrast and a bone scan. While as of yet we have not had a follow-up appointment to learn the results of the CT scan/bone scan, we reviewed the results on the patient portal and from we can gather, it doesn’t look too bad, we know his prostate is not enlarged!
Moving forward in August, I’ve scheduled an appointment with a radiation oncologist and a urologist at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center (#MSKCC) one of the nation’s leading cancer treatment centers.
First and foremost, we are extremely grateful for my family and friends as they have been so very supportive; calling to wish him luck before each doctor appointment/test, In addition, many members of my family have already offered to help me personally as we begin this uncharted journey. IF my husband ends up needing surgery then another big question is ME; thanks to living life in a #wheelchair 🦼 how do I get in/out of bed 🛏️, how would I get to the bathroom 🚽not to mention how would I get to the hospital 🏥to visit my husband. And once again my family to the rescue offering to drive me if needed and coming over to help me any way they can.
Naturally as we wait for official test results from the doctor 👩⚕️and finish with all appointments, we begin to do our own research. Between Google and Facebook, we have found so much helpful information on Google (after, “Google is your friend”) and an overwhelming amount of support from various Prostate Cancer groups on Facebook (because isn’t there a group for almost everything on Facebook).
To say the last six months have been a bit tough is an understatement. I do my best to focus on trying to help both my Mom and husband all the while being #paralyzed and in this wheelchair and not feel sorry for myself, but it’s hard so so very hard. I try not to cry in front of them, I try not to feel sorry for myself in front of them but there are times when I just can’t help myself.
If you don’t mind, please say a little prayer for my family. Please help my Mom’s heart find peace as she cries almost every day since my Dad passed on 2.22.22 and please pray that which every treatment option my husband ends up taking is the best option and provides him with a cancer free outcome.
As always, I wish you a journey filled with exploring new people, places and things – take time to learn from and enjoy each new adventure along your way!
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